The Farm Wife Sagas

God’s perfect timing is something I often forget. Especially when I want something so badly, when I second-guess the things I’m doing, or when I ask, “Why hasn’t _______ happened yet?”

It’s only afterwards that I can see there was a plan all along. There was a reason. And in the end, it worked out perfectly.

When Colton and I were dating, I remember feeling so frustrated when I’d see others getting engaged. I thought, Good golly, when is this guy going to propose? We were living together, buying a house together—marriage seemed like the obvious next step. And then, one perfect day, he did. Later, when COVID forced us to move our wedding date back, I wondered again why God’s timing wasn’t lining up with mine. But when the day finally came—with rain, a rainbow, and sunshine all in the same July afternoon—I realized His timing was far more beautiful than mine ever could have been.

The same happened in 2021, when we decided it was the perfect time to start a family. You’d think I’d have learned my lesson about trusting God’s plan, but nope—I questioned it again. If you’ve been in the infertility struggle, you know how exhausting it is. The testing, the tracking, the worrying over every little thing you eat, drink, or do. I prayed and prayed. And just when I had about given up, I took a test before heading to a wedding—and it was positive. Me, being the over-animated one in our relationship, couldn’t keep it a secret. Even though I would’ve loved to record Colton’s reaction, I just couldn’t keep it in!

June 2022 came quickly. Pregnancy wasn’t easy, and I worried endlessly about life after maternity leave. How could I leave my baby for 60+ hours a week? But once again, God had a plan. He opened the door for me to work for family, to balance being a stay-at-home mom with helping provide. It was on His terms, in His timing, and that plan had been set long before the baby, the marriage, even the relationship itself.

I don’t share this to say that God is just going to drop money into your bank account or deliver the perfect spouse to your doorstep. What I’m saying is this: when you walk in faith, you can trust that the ups and downs are shaping you for something greater. That the tears will one day give way to laughter. That the darkest tunnels will always open to light. And that, in the end, His timing will always prove to be perfect—because He is preparing you for an eternal joy and a heavenly future far beyond anything you could imagine.

So have faith, trust in His plan, and thank God for unanswered prayers.